Brian put this together last night for church on Sunday. Joseph loves to watch it. The pictures do a much better job at expressing why my heart is so full.

About 3 minutes after I made the last post, the phone rang. It was about 3:00 pm and it was Isaac. The kids are only allowed to call home in case of emergency, and I immediately wondered what had happened. He then proceeded to ask me if it was alright if he got baptized and explained that he really felt like he understood what he was doing and that he was ready. I had to laugh and shake my head at myself after I hung up the phone. Today we went down today and picked him up. He has the worst sunburn I've ever seen and is exhausted. Isaac did tell me he was pretty sure he took a couple of showers this week, : ) Joseph has really struggled at night while Isaac was gone. The change really seemed to affect his sense of security. He is very glad his big brother is home. Hannah was so excited to see him she belched in his face. Isaac was really impressed. Faith wrote Isaac a letter at camp, he is her hero(most of the time). They all talked very loudly and at the same time for most of the drive home. There is never a dull and very seldom even a quiet moment in our lives right now, and I am so grateful for the fun we have.
Okay, well here goes! I had the opportunity to have a phone conversation with a new blog friend last week who God has used tremendously to encourage my faith and trust in him in all situations. She shared how therapeutic blogging has been for her and during our conversation we laughed about how hard it is to set aside time for journaling, scrap booking, etc with busy young families. So I decided to start blogging again for a couple of reasons. First, I want to have something for my children when they get older, since their baby books are pretty pathetic! (Sorry kids!) and also so that I can remind myself regularly of the love that is poured out on us continually. Today is Isaac's 3rd day at bible camp. He is 9 and has never been away from Brian and I for more than a night and only to grandma's, aside from a trip we took 31/2 years ago to Hawaii for our 10th anniversary. I miss him terribly and pray that his heart is being wooed by Father even as I type this. Father is revealing to me on an almost daily basis right now how much more I need to trust him with my kids. (Ha! I should say His kids) Anyway, He is showing me how I have attempted to shield them from struggle, conflict and suffering. From Joseph's spinal cord surgery to which class they are in this fall I have wanted to protect them. More than anything else I want them to experience His love in a genuine, authentic way. I want the Jesus that I introduce them to to be the real thing and not as Depheche Mode said "my own personal Jesus" contrived from my limited mind and experience. So I am endevouring to let go and trust more this week, reminding myself that we have the most incredible Father of all and He really does know best.
It has been a long time since we have posted any updates, but w/Joseph's upcoming surgery we figured the blog might be a good way to keep you all posted on how things are going. Joseph has been home for almost 12 weeks now. He is an incredible, sweet little guy. He walks as fast as his little foot will allow him to. He refers to himself as "Josa and Jo Jo." Joseph's favorite thing to do is to ride up and down our driveway with Hannah in her battery powered gator. Joseph is scheduled for surgery on the 8th of April at Denver Children's Hospital. They will be untethering his spinal cord from a tumor. The CT and MRI have indicated that it is a fatty tumor, so they won't have to remove it all. The doctor expects him to be in the hospital for about a week. We are praying for it to go smoothly and his surgeons to have skill and wisdom. If any of you out there are still following along, let me know and we'll be sure to keep posting updates.
We made it to Guangzhou last night about 8:00 pm and checked into the White Swan hotel. It is warm and tropical here. We added some pictures of Joseph on his potty. He likes it alot, because he has mastered scooting around on it for transportation. It gives his knees a break and helps him be mobile. On the plus side he also uses it some! Here he scooted all the way from the middle of our room to the hall of this nice hotel. He was quite pleased with himself. We are feeling very blessed that he is in such good spirits. He had to have 5 vaccinations at his physical appointment today. Joseph seems to be pretty scared of doctors and strangers in general and I'm not sure today will help him get over that. He had 1 shot in each leg 1 in the L arm and 2 in the right which they gave individually and agonizingly slow. We are so glad that the shots are behind us now. The Thompsons hung out the extra half hour at the clinic with us to lend moral support. They are wonderful. We were able to reschedule our flights to return a day earlier on the 9th yesterday. It is fun here in Guangzhou, but we really miss Faith and Hannah and are looking forward to being with them soon. United has been amazing. They gave us very competitive fares, helped us track down bags and rescheduled the flight earlier with no charge. Tomorrow we will either be touring the city or going to the zoo depending on the consensus of the group. Our guide here is excellent. His name is Jason and he takes good care of all of us. We have had incredible help here from our CCAI guides. Joseph is an amazing intelligent little boy. He is more lively every day. He stayed with Brian today for a nap while I completed paperwork and took out laundry. He is usually pretty smiley but has occasional tantrums much like most 2 year olds I know. It has been so much fun getting to know him. He and Isaac really play well together now. I am so proud of what a sweet(if somewhat wild at times) big brother he is. God has blessed me more than I can express with an incredible family. I miss all of you and love you.
Joseph Brian Zi Nian Lockwood
We found our son on the website at our adoption agency, Chinese Children Adoption International on July 11, 2008. His birthday is 2-21-07. Joseph currently lives in Luoyang. His name is a mouth full, but we really wanted to keep his Chinese name and his daddy wanted him to have his name also. We feel incredibly privileged to be able to have him as a part of our family.